Calm down. Take a few deep breaths. It is not the end of the world. You do not need to solve this problem right now. You deserve some time off. I know that spending time at a place which adds no value to your personality does not interest you anymore. Been there, done that. Haven’t we all?
There are a few things off the top of my head I can suggest to you. I am not sure if these will help you. I am not sure if these will make sense to you. But what is the harm in trying?
Start measuring your time carefully. See what activities are unnecessarily cultivating gardens from your time. Cut them down. Start cleansing your thoughts, start moisturizing your mind. Create two piles of things. Abstract or tangible, doesn’t matter. Once you have two piles- one of the things that require your time and the other of the things that are currently taking up your time, you will be able to see reality in a much better light. A thorough shuffling of priorities, that is what you need. And you have to grill down, right till the end of your very being- about the things that matter to you the most. Because in this world and culture, it is easy to lose sight of yourself, and all that you once wanted to be, and all that you have become now.
Stop. Breathe. Sing a little. Dance some more. Play with children. Draw and color the world of your dreams wild. Now think where your life is headed and you will definitely be closer to your answer.
Most of all, remember that it is okay. This is life. An enigma, completely yours to figure out, at your own pace. You are the boss. You define your own rules. But make sure, that once you make them, you live by them.
Now get back to work or you will be fired!